In the current phase of my life, I identify most strongly as a Seven on the Enneagram types. A Seven is always high on energy, waiting to start working on the next big thing. Being calm is relatively hard when your mind is constantly buzzing with billions od thoughts and ideas. Sevens try their best to use this chaotic energy to create something meaningful and share that with the people they love.
However, be it attempts at understanding my career goals or building overall self-development, I have often encountered a major roadblock.
In the pursuit of the things that make me feel alive, I often feel s l o w – so slow that any progress I make seems laughable to my inner demons. Attempts at reasoning with the demons, to tell them I am just working at my own pace never go well. I am always left feeling that I am running a race that I know I am going to lose.
The enneagram website uses the term “cheerful determination” which I think is very fitting. I, among many other Sevens, care a lot about just giving it our best shot. Sadly, society’s perception of success these days is making quick instant-ramen-like progress, or that’s how it seems on the outside looking in. The arduous process of laying the groundwork to make a task seem easy and effortless is the behind the scenes that you don’t get to see in others’ stories. I have been struggling to give myself the grace to being okay with extremely slow progress at first.
Learning new things, understanding my anxieties better, knowing how to not burn the food while cooking, learning how to not feel burned out myself, looking for the silver linings in every grey cloud, recovering from painful events in my life– these are all going to take time and I will be slow at it in the beginning.
It’s kind of like trying to fly a kite. The start is slow and discouraging- but as soon as your kite finally approaches the heights of the blue skies, it soars! And so do you. You start running to keep up with it and to let your hopes and dreams touch the sky.
We need to remember that good things take time. Not knowing how to do something or feeling like you are not good enough gives you an infinite space for growth. Growth sets you free from the evil thoughts in your head. You grow every day if you choose to take setbacks as fuel to keep going. As a Seven, I want to convey this message to you and to myself with “cheerful determination”!
Here are some lyrics that made me super happy when listening to Sleeping at Last’s song, “Seven”
“I feel hope
Deep in my bones
Tomorrow will be beautiful”
“I am ready for whatever comes next”
Thank you for reading my little thought bubble! I hope it encourages you to do some self-reflection during stay-at-home because of COVID-19.
Take care, and I hope you and your loved ones are staying safe ❤
To see a smile
On your face” (: